Spending New Year's Eve alone by Myself

 

Hello 2021

Congratulations to every single one of you who got thru a lot yet managed to survive in the past one year. You nailed it. I'm so proud of you *sending a big virtual hug

2020 is tough, huh? 

Anyways what do you guys do on 1^st January 2021? I just finished watching ‘Start Up’ (drama series on Netflix) hehe. The drama was so good that you should give it a watch :)

Talking about new year it reminds me of my experience on New Year’s Eve two years ago. It’s an embarrassing yet funny haha. I went to the movie by myself on 31^st Dec 2018. I was about to go with my college friend back then but turned out that she couldn’t come over as she’d something else to do. I didn’t want to go watching a movie alone –cause people would think it’s weird especially when I do it on New Year’s Eve while everyone is coming with their friends, family, relatives, etc.- I wanted to stay at home instead but I already told my mom that I’d like to hang out with my friend that day and I didn’t want to sound pathetic by telling her my friend had canceled our plan. Anyways it was my first New Year’s Eve in Jakarta –I came here on September 2018- so I didn’t make many friends yet, I didn’t want to make my mom worried about my friendship life T_T.

New year is not a big deal for me. It’s just that most of my friends celebrate it by hanging out, watching movies together or having barbeque with their family while staring at the fireworks up in the dark-yet-beautiful sky. Doing those things in celebrating new year make makes me feel normal LOL. So I decided to go by myself.

I remember the movie I watched was “Aqua Man”, it started 2 hours before 12AM. I went there earlier so that I can get some dinner. I had recheese factory for dinner that night, while eating my food I knew some guys and girls looking at me wondering what I was doing there alone by myself, seemed like they felt bad for me because I didn’t have any friends or relatives to hang out with. They’re talking about me behind my back. God I was so embarrassed and suddenly got angry at my friend since she couldn’t come. I got out of that place as soon as I finished my food. I still had some time before the movie started so I was stopping by print shop near to the restaurant to print some pictures -taken in 2018- to decorate my bedroom. The printing employee approached me asking if I needed any help, I told her that I wanted to print some photos and she asked me to wait. The printing was done in 15 minutes, I paid for it and was about to leave but she suddenly asked me if I was there alone and where my boyfriend was. I was so tired of the look she threw at me that I said I was going there with my friend but she hadn’t arrived yet. I’ve never thought I would look so pathetic spending New Year’s Eve without any companion that people who saw me thought I’ve got no friends.

I was in a hurry since the movie started in 10 minutes so I left right away after I’d answered her question. My seat was in the second front row, the cinema was running out of the tickets and they had only the tickets for the first and second row left. Still, I was lucky enough to get the ticket. But I can’t lie that sitting from the first five front rows in cinema is so much uncomfortable, the screen looked so close and big that you had to crane your neck for at least two hours to be able to see the scene clearly. It gave my neck, my back and my eyes pain. The movie ended and I just wanted to go home to get some sleep. It was pouring outside so I stayed a little longer as I watched New Year’s Eve fireworks in Jakarta.

Now that I’m looking back I think it was a funny story. I’m getting used to go anywhere myself and spend my most of the time alone since then. I become more independent than I was before. I do still get in touch with my friends of course, but hanging out with friends is never become a thing anymore. You don’t need to argue what food you’d like to pick, what place you’d like to go, what movie you’d like to watch etc. It was nice. It still is.

And, oh, I forgot to say this "Happy new year all. May all of you have a successful year ahead. Let's be happy"🎆🎇